Living my dreams...This has been on e of the best years of my life.  I can't believe that God has been so good to me.  I really don't deserve anything that I have been blessed with this year. Hahah, I thought I'd make a list to make sure that I remember.  This is in no particular order.  It's really just a brain dump

1) I have been healed from former brokeness.

2) I've really grown in my relationship with my Dad.  I saw my dad come to Christ!

3) I grew in my relationship with my brother.  We got to ride in the MS150 together!

4) I got to hangout in Hong Kong with my best friends and meet her parents!

6) I went to Vietnam and met all of my relatives!

5) I'm living with my soul mate and we get to hang out all the time!

6) I'm training for the marathon with a new friend who is super awesome!  We came in 12th in the Philly Great Urban Race.  Going to Louisiana for National!

7) I went to Great Adventure for the first time.

8) I won my first Raffle at Elijah 1st Birthday party

9) Bought my first Tiffany's ring

10) I grew A LOT in my relationship with my cousin!  I managed to total her car and she still loves me.

11)I got a Promotion!!! whoopee!

12) I got a new half bath in my house. Thank you Alan!

13) I swam in my aunts lake for Hours!

14) I saw Cezanne's Collection at the PMA

15) I have a new BFF! Yay for Bay!

16) I discovered Shao Long Bao in Philly!

17) Made the awesomest broiled salmon ever

18) Partied with my sister Aly for the first time and I got to go shopping with her in NYC! Yay!

I will write more as I remember them.  And the year is so not over!  Whoooo!

God truly never ceases to amaze me.  He really knows me and shows me that while I may be noble in my thoughts, he never works the way that I imagine.  It's always so much better and so much more beautiful and deep.  I'm so happy to give my life to the Lord and live.  I'm so happy to do his will knowing that it's like this!

2 thoughts on a lifeline

#2. Next Move.   I've been having second thoughts about business school.  Is it really where God wants me to be? Do I have a talent? These thoughts in the back of my mind have brought me to a bit of a stale mate as I'm studying for my GMAT. Over time, I've lost motivation and I've developed  a fear of failure.  I'm so thankful for God's whisper.  I had a small burst of joy when I came to the conclusion that I never want to know what my talents are.  I never want to know what God is capable of through me.  I am a proud individual and if I had that kind imagination, I'd be either limited to it or desperately chasing it. I want to pursue God's plan for me living on the thread of my own effort to trust in God and God alone.  I don't want to continuing worrying about pinpointing what I'm good at and what I'm not. Identifying what I'm good at doesn't make what I do.  I have arrived by grace and the freedom that wells up in through my chest comes from knowing that nothing but grace will give me the joy of sitting at the banquetting table. I will discipline myself for the sake of the gospel.  He will use me in my obedience and else. The sky is the limit.

#1. Tonight, despite its joy, has been full of sobering thoughts.  I have always been someone with many best friends and family and an even wider circle of close friends, but perhaps God takes them away to show me that He is my rock and my salvation.  He is the only way, the one one, the alpha and the omega.  He sings me a silent song like a warm subtle breeze.  Who am I?  I'm to love and be loved on a string.